I’m not going to lie....the first full day of retirement was rough. Some may say they couldn’t wait or they were relieved...not me. I felt lost, like I lost a piece of myself, my identify. I didn’t know how to live a “normal” life. This article hurt my heart but I absolutely resonated with it. As the days got closer to the inevitable retirement date, I started to feel so lost, useless, worthless and like a complete failure. I know that those feelings may seem extreme but they

Today it would have marked 20 years that I would have served. I miss it daily. I miss the Soldiers and the camaraderie. I miss my battles and all the experiences I was given. I will always cherish the memories. Now, God has given me another road to walk on and another journey to follow. I miss my tribe but I have gained long lasting friendships with leaders, mentors, Soldiers and Peers and I will forever be grateful. Here’s to another year and another chapter doing what I sti

You guys. My insides are bursting. These past few weeks have just been tiring yet humbling. I am working so hard at working along side some amazing people who want to hear our story. I am listening to all of you. To us. I want this to be huge. I want us to make a difference. We may be a small little website but we have big hearts and we are being heard. Thank you to all of you for continuing on this journey with me. You help me. Because of God, my family and all of you, I am

Another month down and another pre op checkup. Although I am a little tired of having to make the drive, I know that I am being seen by some great doctors. I am making progress but the hopes of being able to run or even lift anything more than a 5 lb weight is still not hopeful. All those things I took for granted are now yet just in the distance. As of today there is no running or training for that Army 10 miler that I was hoping to not miss out on again....I left with tears

Sometimes being strong is the only thing left to do. Some days I just want to throw in the towel. I want to wave the white flag. I just want to be done. I am emotionally draIned. I am then reminded by a song that I need to snap out of it. Yes, sometimes music heals my soul. Sometimes you just need to hear the right beat and the right lyrics to get your groove back. Sometimes I just need to ignore the background noise and focus on something else. I’ll be ok. I have to be. . .

Let me begin with this...the other day I posted with my middle finger in the air. It may have offended some people. I told you that I was gonna be real and honest. I try not to use curse words and try to be clean. Soo, sorry ? I’ll try and done it down 🤷🏻‍♀️ Now let’s start again 👇🏼 Peace out to the negativity in my life. The one where it starts to make me feel about myself. Those feelings that I am not good enough. Nope. No more. Don’t ever let yourself get to that point

A month ago I had my 6th surgery. Two weeks ago I had 21 staples removed from that surgery. Yesterday I wore shorts in public and tried not to care that I will have yet another scar that can’t be hidden. Today I am trying to not continue to let these scars define me. It is now a part of who I am. It is a continuous reminder that I am still here and alive. I have heard it all and I am listening to all of you. For now, I am just trying to no relive what happened. The incident s

It’s Friday and we made it through the first few days of May 👊🏼. I’ve been taking some much needed “me” time. I’ve been focusing on writing the book, networking, talking about the hard truths and just being grateful for my tribe. As we dive deeper into May let us remember all those who are suffering from mental health. It is not easy to choose to live with it. It takes a lot of hard days to have a good one. It took me years to be ok with it. I had choices but thankfully God

All. The. Feels. If you didn’t already know, I am a mentor with @we.are.veterati and I absolutely LOVE it. Being able to give back is such a heart warming feeling. Through out my time in service, I have had mentors in those who I never expected it from. They were my battles. They were my Soldiers. They were my tribe. I may not be perfect or the best BUT I will stand by you 💯! I will encourage you and cheer you on. I will also give you honest feedback. Thank you to this sweet

Real life. Mom, Veteran, Military Spouse, Entrepreneur, blogger, motivational speaker, coach. I’m tired. I share my real life drama, failures and successes. When I try and explain what I do and why I do it. It’s all of that and to help people like me who are going through it too. We are human. We make mistakes. One thing for sure is that I love my people. My tribe. My girls and guys. I’m tired some days but I am making it. I am walking. I am breathing. I am living. Nothing ca

It’s hump day. Where did the time go ? Today I am venturing out for some Antique shopping. I had a hard time figuring out what to wear. I used to hide behind jeans and big shirts. Not today frumpy. I am starting to feel good in my skin again. I’m not model material but I don’t care. Sometimes a pair of stretchy jeans that I now to belt is all I need. I have had these @converse for a while now and I am just now able to stick my swollen foot in it. Huge win. I always say this .

As I start to begin my day I run across these 2 things and I started thinking. I may get some eye rolls or maybe even a negative comment but these are my thoughts and not yours. In the beginning I was obsessed. It was a hunt that was consuming me. Then after weeks and months went by it was all about the words and the meaning behind them. Positivity and affirmations. It is what helped me get through the shit storm that I have been given. Then I start noticing all the greed and

Thank you to Amanda Huffman and Airman to Mom for letting me share my story. It is my absolute passion to be able to help others who are suffering know that they are not alone. Life after the military is not easy but I am here to help you and give you hope. You are not alone. Go to this link to hear more about my life then and now. http://www.airmantomom.com/2019/02/overcoming-ptsd/ http://www.airmantomom.com/2019/02/overcoming-ptsd/ . . . #podcaster #airmantomom #frombootsto